Just another White Lie?

Sometimes I don’t know I should feel. I don’t know what way I should act. I don’t know the right things to say. I wing it & hope for the best.

I recently have become very comfortable in telling the complete honest truth about how I feel. I don’t know if this is the right thing to do? As I have heard, white lies are sometimes ok to tell. But ”why even bother with those?” is the way I am thinking about white lies at this present time.

If I don’t tell someone the complete honest truth, I feel a over powering feeling of guilt. So over the last month or so I have been way more honest to those around me. I feel maybe I shouldn’t? Sometimes it may be too much to handle for me to say, or others to hear, harsh or wrong. But its how I feel, so how can it be wrong? Feelings come naturally so I can’t help that. But maybe saying them is what is wrong? Although I feel I have too or I will over think all conversations to come.

I am really angry, at the world, at myself and my silly habits, at people who I know are lying. Even though I know one may do it to protect themselves and are even scared to tell the truth, we’ve all felt that way. Hell, I probably still lie about some things but try my utmost not too.

But being truthful, can help. I recently decided I will be as open as possible, even though it is a hard thing to do. I am sick & tired of secrets. It may take me a while to forgive some people, my dad, my friends, people around me in general. But time heals all, I believe in forgive in forget.

But that doesn’t mean it happens over night. For any of us. Take one day at a time, if you don’t forgive someone, or they don’t forgive you yet? Have an honest conversation. It’s the best solution to all these secrets & lies. In the end the truth always comes out, and if it doesn’t someone is trapped inside their own mind. I feel its time to be more open minded. Listening to every side first. If you don’t agree, fair is fair, but we should all at least, listen and speak the truth.

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2 thoughts on “Just another White Lie?

  1. I think most of us, if we’re honest, don’t know how we should or are expected to feel/act at the best of times, never mind the troubles that arrive at our feet and try to crumble the world around us. Telling the truth about how you feel and turning those stones to see what lurks underneath is immensely brave. Not many people do that, certainly not enough. Thanks Damsel…

    1. Yeah. Its hard to be honest with yourself, so with others? It is a lot more of a difficult task, but if you look at it in a positive way of trying to help someone, its easier. Thank you very much. A lovely flattering comment 😀

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