Lately, I feel many things.
I find it hard to distinguish feelings at the moment. If one was to ask me ‘how are you?‘ && I really thought about my answer? Rather than many of our usual responses of ‘grand thanks and you?” I assume I would have a reply such as :
“Well I’m happy, anxious, contempt, distracted, confident, fearful, nervous, thankful, relaxed, inspired, upset, stressed, and pre-occupied, and totally feel like my head is going to implode someday thanks, how about you?”
Recently I have learned that I actually sometimes don’t even know how to recognize what feeling it is I feel, as I am over whelmed by many. Any one else feel that way?
I do know what to do to help myself when I feel a certain emotion, which I am glad of, it’s just sometimes I feel to many at the one time.
Right now? I don’t know who I am, where I want to go, who I want to be. I literally have no idea what so ever to be honest, but the main thing I do want to be is : H A P P Y !
Life can change drastically from one day to another, that is something I have learned in my life and it has stopped me from aspiring to be many things. Why? I am fearful.
When I feel like when everything is going good? In the back of my mind I think : Something is bound to pop up & ruin this. And behold, it always does! I know why, its because I am subconsciously thinking about something bad happening and boom. But don’t worry.
That, is going to “Stop, Right now” (insert the rest of the Spice Girls choon here)