Today is World Suicide Prevention Day 2015. A day in which we all hope to prevent more suicides from taking place. The main theme is to prevent suicide : by reaching out and helping people. I think if there is one thing you can do today? It’s ask yourself or someone else “Am I OK? Are you OK?” You could save someone’s life.
My dad took his own life on the 2nd January 2012, the day after new years day. I felt like I knew it was going to happen, but that there was nothing I could do. As he suffered with a mental illness, I was watching him with every move for a year. On the second of January 2012 he ended his life himself, but he changed mine and many others lives forever. I miss him every single day. Everyday I just wish I could talk to him, so badly, I wish I could hear his lovely laugh, and go for a walk on the beach with him. I cannot put into words how much I miss him, it’s not possible, & it is very hard to accept. As time passed I have accepted it to a certain point, but I will always wish he didn’t die the way he did.
I want people to know it is OK to talk. He himself did talk, but he didn’t speak about everything going on in his mind, I wish he felt like he could tell me anything, but he was afraid and scared and full of worry. Thinking about it? I know how it feels to be afraid to talk about how you feel, but I could have always told him anything and for that, I thank him. I know he was suffering in his mind, I could see it playing out in his physical state. I hope everyone reading this knows, its OK to be scared, it’s OK to be afraid, but letting someone know how you are and asking for help can truly help you through your days.
I hope World Suicide Prevention Day 2015 helps prevent as many suicides as possible by raising awareness and just having people speak about the day helps. Please ask someone “Are You OK?”. You could save someone’s life.